I went to see Emily, she too was struggling to play this version of herself. We decided it was time to go home. At first we thought to just go back for a few weeks. No one need ever know. However the thought of having to return here was not something exciting. I was torn. I didn’t want to go back as Queen, I didn’t want to rule anything. I wanted to go back and live at home with Mother, Father and Ash. I wanted to forget the years of separation, I wanted to forget the lives of my past.

We decided to give it a try, we would leave in a few days, this time we would take Nicky for a while. The nights leading up to that day were filled with dreams of Raven. Not the haunted man he had become, but the angel he once was. Memories mixed with dream.

Raven and I, dragon form, soaring through the skies, I could feel the warm air on my skin, could hear Raven’s husky growl as I flipped around him. I could feel the race of my heart as he chased me through the clouds.

Raven stepping up from the hot springs, water running down his naked body, like an ancient god rising from the mist. Beautiful, breath taking. He walks like a panther, all lean muscle, rippling as he moves slow and seductive. He would stalk me, his eyes glowing golden amber would burn through to my core. He licked his lips and warmth spread through me. He would smile and a deep dimple would show on the left. I stood dumbfounded as he approached with an grin. He would always catch me and throw me in the water, I never did fight hard when he looked at me like that.

Every night dreams mixed with memories, my soul. How could I continue to live this farce of a life.